ALyXaNdRiA_BaRBiE (the Sexiest Spy of the Underworld)

"It's the good girls who write in a diary, the bad girls don't have time. Me? I just want a life I am going to remember, even if I don't write it down."

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I have come to a point in my life where I wonder, where exactly am I going? I know I want to work for CNN, but what exactly am I doing to achieve that? Here's my answer. Nothing! Am I taking advance classes to prepare me for broadcasting? No. Was my broadcasting training in college enough to make the people of CNN notice me? I don't think so.

I write good stories, I think. I have good job experiences, or so I think. I have worked in good newspaper companies, that's what I know. But would this be enough? Or am I putting too many obstacles on my way without my even trying to go around them?

Sometimes, I would wonder, what has happened to me? What happened to the girl I used to be? I used to do anything I could think of doing regardless of any hindrance. I used to try anything I've put my mind to and do it. I used to be different.

But the girl I used to be was a childish, immature, act-before-you-think person (not that I've changed much), and I want to think I've moved on from there. It's not such a good thing to be cleaning up my messes after I've made them... knowingly and unknowingly.

Which reminds me, that at least, in hindsight, I used to be a girl with guts and a great fighting spirit. The girl I used to be always thought she could take on the world singlehandedly. And you know what? I think I want to be that girl again, or maybe, just borrow that spirit I now lack.

I want to achieve my goals, at least before I turn 35, and that's only a short eight years away.

I need to do some serious thinking, and I hope, whatever it is I come up with would be extra amazing with a cherry on top.

Tata for now!

(Writing always helps me ease some of my problems! It's just plain cool!)

ALyXaNdRiA

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