ALyXaNdRiA_BaRBiE (the Sexiest Spy of the Underworld)

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There are times when we like or dislike people for no reason at all. Or maybe there are lots of reasons but you just can't name them or can't put a finger to them. But whatever the reason, it creates a puzzle.

I have this huge dilemma. I like this guy, and I have liked him for years, without even knowing why.

I think he drinks a lot, but he's not a drunk. He doesn't seem like he's a responsible person, or maybe he is and I've just seen that irresponsible side of him. But I do know he's really smart, or if he's acting like he's smart, then he must be a good actor, because he does seem smart to me. And he has a totally sexy body, that's a plus, I know. You know what I think is a major plus, though? He likes to read. And it made me wish I didn't know that because it made me even more interested in him.

I don't know anything about him except from what I've heard people say about him, but in the grand scheme of things, would that even count?

I really want to get to know him better... maybe I keep thinking that when I do get know him better, I'll either get over my crush on him, or... it might magnify and leave me... what, I don't really know... maybe leave me wanting more... wishing something amazing will happen between us. This is just so weird... everytime I see him, I can't seem to talk or make decent or even passably decent conversation with him. I can barely open my mouth, period.

I think it's really exciting, though, having a crush on someone, and getting really excited when he's around seems very childish... but it's such an amazing feeling. I keep thinking, that even if there's a cure to this, you know, making me not like him anymore, I might not even take it. I won't trade this for the world. The excitement is like an adrenaline rush... seriously... especially when he's around. :)

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